Go,

Chasing the hope just on the horizon

Leaping and skating on the thin ice of life.

Staying ahead of worry and frustration

dodging drama, anger, depression and strife

Though i'm not good at skating

And life always cuts low

I realize that ahead, somewhere on the horizon

I might find find the place that I need to go.

If such a place even exists.

Poetry incoming.

Just one more day, and i'll be posting some more new stuff over the coming week. Get excited.

Happy

Be happy when there's no reason to be happy

Be happy when nothing you think you know is true.

Be happy when things that should make you happy

choke the happy right out of you.

Be confident with everything you try to build up.

Be confident when it crumbles to ash and smoke

Be confident and remember to smile and laugh

because all of life is just a joke.

Remember that life is just a vacuum

and any joy is yours to take

but life will not lead you by the hand

success isn't yours to receive

it's yours to make.

For Myself

It's amazing what lies in a droplet of thought

enough to make and unmake the world

I try not to think about it a lot

When I reach for those thoughts my dreams come unfurled

but can drops and scraps keep one going

to a non-existent deity I pray.

I wish I could mold and shape

and that dreams were made of clay

so I could make them real – if only for myself

Haikus from last summer

Dug up some old poetry I wrote while working as a beach boy last summer, trying to burn time as I cooked in the sun. Plus it gave me the opportunity to brag about being paid to write poetry (take that english majors). Most of it isn't perfect, but it's good perspective and gives me the ability to test if my friends are actually checking this like they said they would without having to put in the extra effort. Enjoy

Go to help couple

Elderly race to chairs

Not quite summer job

Try to write haiku

Can't think of good words to use

Give up task before begin

Existence great tapestry

greater than can be perceived

human race but small dot

Man seek to fight cult

Learn what is not mean to be

Go crazy gouge eyes

Present

The realization of a time limit on ones source of happiness has two possible outcomes: paralysis and depression or excitement and re invigoration. In the big picture, all of a lifetime is a brief flash in the pan of existence. Springs of happiness shoot up at random occasionally, and one cannot give in to the creed of despair but must tackle with full spirit the proverb carpe diem.

The beauty in this is that enjoying the present is not just living, but the action of grasping, the effort of reaching beyond the comfortable and mundane. To express, to feel, to act as though this moment, this hour, this day might be the last. To engage fully with others, not merely as a bystander, but as the primary actor in the farce we call life.

Fears, frustrations, anger, anxiety...these are all roots and rocks which seek to hold one back from taking hold of the gleaming goblet of happiness, of experiencing the full beauty of life as not only a streaming black and white film of interactions and struggles, but a beautiful tapestry in which the central figure stands proud before adversaries and friends, with nothing in his way.

Time

Past, future and present, all words used to break up reality into general comforting terms, and yet all seem to give me none. The past is a line of falls and triumphs which have placed me where I am, but the present seems like a carpet which could at any time be pulled from under my feet and the future toil to an uncertain reward. My mind rejects this notion of reality, but I have not managed to find a more optimism projection. I want to tackle this.

Why should I live in uncertainty. Mastery of destiny should rest firmly in my hands. To think of it as volatile magic out of my grasp is to discredit logic, life and my own control. In my state of life, my choices, or lack thereof, tend to have little or no immediate effect. Inaction has been my default, but is unmaking me. Fear of speaking with others, fear of taking grasp of academics, all of this is holding me back.